Late To The PartyPosted by Jia
Dec 1 – Pick One Word
If I had to encapsulate the experiences of 2010 into a single word I would pick the word Trying.
It was trying in that much of it was difficult. We dealt with money trouble (eased in part by the generosity of dear friends). We dealt with family health issues. We dealt with a spike in (and were blessed with some degree of resolution of) our daughter’s mental health issues.
But, it was also a year of us trying to improve our lot in life.
It was a year of us trying to get a handle on our eating habits. We gave up, much to our chagrin, when life started throwing us curve-balls.
It was a year of us trying to get a handle on our finances. Things are better than they were in year’s past, but we’re still reeling from the expenses related to the aforementioned health and mental health crises.
It was a year of us trying (and succeeding) to be better parents. To be more patient. To be more understanding.
This time next year I would like to look back at 2011 and be able to encapsulate it as Progress. I am hopeful that 2011 will allow us to see movement toward the goals we have for ourselves personally. I am hopeful that 2011 will see us moving toward making the life of our dreams a reality.
Dec 2 – Writing
The biggest thing that takes time away from my ability to write is the time I spend fiddling around on the Internet. I’ve cut back quite a bit over the course of 2010. But, I can still cut back further. The problem is that working on the computer, it’s just too easy to click on a tab, and be on Facebook in another window.
So, I am considering how I can fit time into my day to write, just to write, without temptation.
What I’ve come up with is that i can walk down to the Panera Bread in the shopping center where my girls take Tae Kwon Do, bring a notebook, order a cup of herbal tea and sit and let the ideas flow until it’s time to pick them up and go home. I can probably do this two nights a week … buying me an hour to an hour and a half of time (total each week) to, if nothing else, brainstorm.
Dec 3 – Moment
A moment when I felt alive? 2010 was a difficult year. Honestly, the bulk of the year found me with my head down, trudging ahead, forcing myself to put one foot in front of the other.
But, back in October the family and I spent a weekend down in the MD/DC area visiting our friend Casey. There was a moment that found me sitting on a bench – the first time I had sat down all day. My chest was heavy, my joints were aching, my feet were throbbing. I was frankly miserable. I kept forcing myself to try and enjoy the blessing of the seat beneath me – the comfort it provided … the leaves green and golden in the sunlight – the beauty it afforded me … the sight of Sephoni across the path, sitting on a wall … the joy on her face. I will be honest in saying that I wasn’t really succeeding.
Then, out of nowhere it seemed, a group of men appeared … each dressed as a Greenman singing a traditional Pagan chant.
“Hoof and Horn, Hoof and Horn
all that dies shall be reborn
Corn and Grain, Corn and Grain
all that falls shall rise again”
- Ian Corrigan
Tears welled in my eyes, and a spark of joy sprang to live in my heart. In that moment I could smell the sweetness of the air, the colors around me were suddenly brighter. In that moment I felt the presence of the Divine and felt embraced by my Gods.
Dec 4 – Wonder
Insofar as achieving a sense of wonder this past year. I’ll be frank in stating that I didn’t come even close. In fact, it didn’t even occur to me to try.
I would hope that I take this as a wake up call to look for opportunities for joy and wonder in 2011.
Dec 5 – Let Go
This year was a year of letting go of stuff. Of purging through drawers and closets. Of purging through boxes in the attic. Of purging ourselves of having so many “wants” and focusing instead on “needs”, or at least wants that serve a greater purpose.
There is more to release. More to let go of. But the funny thing is, the more I get rid of, the more clothes I dump in donation bins, the more books I give to the public library, the more old toys I give to the neighbors (or my co-workers), the more junk I send to recycling bins or (as infrequently as I possibly can) the garbage dump the better it feels.
I think because our dream of a home of our home in the country requires that we learn to live a simpler life. To make do with less. To be happy with very little. This year, more than any other, we made a lot of progress in terms of stripping away the unneeded, the unnecessary. Every time we purge a little more excess out of our lives, it feels like we’re making room for another reality to take hold.
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